As a house full of memories empties
The hope and disappear buries me
It keeps me grounded as fate dies
Surely i’ll rise from the dirt
Put on a new shirt
And assert a new life
Another new lie to tell myself
Another week to consider
Then reconsider my life
Each new notch in your belt is another new knot in my noose.
If only you could see me,
Hung from my throat,
Pale, empty emotion
Dead and alone
Just like you left me.
That new fashion suits you well.
The empty eyes and deceitful lies.
Really matches that vaguely awful exterior.
It’s not that we’re bad
It’s just you weren’t dad.
This cold summer morning
will surely melt me by afternoon
The heat is boring
Give me snow and holiday cheer.
Days are crowded with thoughts of you.
At night your voice attacks my ears;
My heart sinks at the thought of you. You keep me down.
I’m always just bummed out.
My jealously problems are too much sometimes. But they spark from my low self esteem and my lack of trust.
Do you blame me? My ex’s lust wasn’t ment for me. I had to adjust to losing another.
I’m not attractive enough to have lust. Must not be for me.
Dad, i’ve come to realize that you were an amazing man, but i can’t model my self after you no longer.
you left this family, not cause you felt like it, cause your body knew it was time, but even then it doesn’t excuse the pain you caused.
A son without a father, a daughter with a broken mother.
but you know what. we beat that. we are better off with out you
cause who knows how you would have treated me, my mother and my sister.
i wouldn’t be half the man i was today if it wasn’t for what happend.
I know this is sounds mean and hurtful but its the best way i could put it to words
It sits on my shoulder, it creeps in my sleep, but what sleep? I avoid closing my eyes to withdraw these demons that hide in my mind can’t take much more.
It was a split splice that brought it back again. But I don’t fight I accept. I finally let it take me over. I’m not who I was or who I should be, but instead I’m walking distress. Why fight when we mean nothing.
I’ve watched my lights flicker out, just like my stability.